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Monday, 6 August 2012

Caramelatte, Clamps and Clit

Hey lovely people, so how has your month been? Mine has been OK I guess. Very boring if I'm honest aside from baking occasionally, devouring books by the shelf full and wanking so much my toys are on the verge of protesting...seriously there's not much to do around here. However tomorrow I finally start my therapy for my anxiety disorder. I'm happy that its finally here, albeit shitting myself because I'm scared that it won't work. I just need to keep a positive attitude about it, I read somewhere that if you keep positive and envisage yourself being who or where you want to be(e.g a new job, or on the end of that hot guys cock etc) that you are more likely to achieve it than if you have a negative attitude. Plus I'm so frustrated at not being able to do normal things like catch a train, go in to town with my besties for a coffee its been three months since I've wrapped my mouth around the caffeiney goodness of a Caramelatte and that folks is a long time for a Nero addict who is on first name terms with the baristas in Exeter. I really miss working though and can't wait to start again! I do have one last tidbit to tell you about before I get to the man goss. A family friend is getting married and asked me to do he wedding cupcakes! Which in my opinion is a pretty big deal.So in order to not completely bollocks them up I've spent the last two weeks or so designing, practicing and perfecting my techniques...getting the icing the perfect consistency to pipe though is a total biatch however I've worked it out now and fingers crossed they should look awesome. OK before I spill the juice on the guy that's been getting my knickers all juicy, I would just like to point out that just because I don't write about it doesn't mean I'm not getting up to mischief...my black book is like an a-z. So from the post before my Fifty Shades of Grey review, I clearly say that Golden Delicious is a habit I need to kick and for the most part I was sticking to it with the exception of a platonic text I'd sent him a question that none of my friends would know the answer too. It was brief but we were civil and that was that then a week ago I wasn't lounging around and checking my Facebook when he messaged me. The second I saw his message in my inbox my pulse started swooshing around like it normally does when he's involved. A few minutes later he was asking me what I would've done if we'd hooked up again. The second I read it my eyebrow shot halfway up my forehead and my lips bunched up so tight they probably looked like a cats arse and I had to refrain from typing the text of equivalent of a snort of derision if my ass I was the one who wanted to hook-up again remember, you know, I sent that lovely picture of my naked-but-still-bruised-from-that-spanking-you-gave-me ass, telling you to come and put your cock in me. But still I refrained and decided to let it go. And told him that I'd have done everything we didn't get chance to do that night...there's only so much kink you can fit into a few hours. No jokes aside from a couple of hours baking I was in a constant state of hornyness, and attached to my phone and various sex toys all day and night, and had to change my pants twice because they were that wet, all from his dirty texts, him sending me a picture of his big fat cock and yes ladies and gents he has a very fat cock, me then telling him where I wanted it, our brief discussion about shibari....moments later I was busy tying my boobs up with pink string and taking a photo for him, then him saying he wanted to rub stinging nettles over my boobs and pussy got me even more slick, I don't think I could handle it on my pussy, my boobs yes but only if he was the one doing it because his cock in either my mouth or pussy is likely take my mind off the pain if it was too much and if I did it to myself all I'd have to hand would be my dildo and I highly doubt sucking that would have much of an effect lol. Towards the end of the night I did another video. And I mentioned that I'd really like clamps on my pussy....again moments later I was rifling through my box then taking a pic I wish he'd been the one to put them on me. We also spoke about wax play, it's something I really want to try. The next morning after breakfast I was thinking about our conversation from the day before and as I was in the throws of orgasm I called his name (no one else was in thank frick lol) not his actual name the name he'd confessed to like being called...it was hot! A few days later I decided to tell him about a kink that I hadn't told him about. He's open about his and whilst he has two that are a bit extreme for me I don't judge, it's his thing right. I never thought I'd tell him, in part due to pride as it's not a kink I'm loud and proud about, truth be told I'm utterly ashamed and embarrassed of it, but also due to a fear of being rejected by him because of it(it's happened before when I've told people and well ouch) the amount of times over the last year I've come so close to blurting it out over text and just about managed to refrain due to the fear of the above. So being that I'm now in Wales and no longer run the risk of bumping into him and trying to meet his gaze whilst blushing with awkwardness and shame I thought fuck it. Admittedly my stomach was in knots and I nearly wussed out of telling him because of said embarrassment but with a bit of prompting from him to spill I just blurted out. I was flooded with relief when I read his response "So whats wrong with that" I know it sounds dumb but I could've cried because it's so not normally the response I get and well pfftt hormones and all that. However during the week I text him twice and I didn't hear back from him so I started to worry that maybe initially he'd misread the text you know skimmed over the first part then reread it later only to be like freeeaak. Turns out I was just stressing over nothing because he's cool with it. I need to leave well alone though now, because we keep doing this and I'll always want more from him but I'll never be enough for him and I don't mean that in the lame 0% self esteem kind of way but in the respect of different strokes for different folks. Maybe I want a guy who likes all of me and not just fragments and yes ladies and gents you did just read that right for the first time in three years I actually want more from a guy than he wants from me although that's been obvious from when he first appeared in my blog although I did think if I had him for the night that'd be enough and that the thing that usually happens after I hook up with a guy would happen, you know I don't want them anymore, but I guess my pussy turned into a greedy Golden Delicious wanting slut. And on that note I'll leave it there. Stay kinky Kinky Cupcake XOXO

31 comments:

  1. your posts are really good, great writer and definitely worth the wait and a read.
    Every time I read your posts about Golden Delicious I can’t help but feel that I know who Golden Delicious is, it all sounds very familiar.. down to the last detail :-) I wonder if his extreme kinks involves a few guys and one lady.. It’s likely I am wrong and that it is just a Coincidence.. Yet again another great post.

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    1. Dear anonymous, i'm glad you enjoy my posts :-) Devon is a very big place with and the Fet scene in the south west is pretty huge, none of my hook-ups have wanted a gang bang though. and who is this man you speak of?(post me q comment I doubt it'll be anyone I know though)

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  2. I always look forward to your post's, The way you mix sex with your every day life is great and always makes a great read. Your post's Walk all over 50 shades of grey. You are a very talented writter and definatly know your stuff. You should be paid to write.
    It's the way you talk about his cock, the things he likes, the control in his spanks, the hair brush right down to the way he speaks and what he says. "my house my rules" and the way he was pulling you back when you was trying to kiss him..it's un canny :-) But you are right Exeter is a very big place..I only thought it was the same person because it's rare to find such a filthy, gorgeous (like unbelievably hot), considerate lover and funny guy who has a massive cock especially in exeter lol.
    It probably is not the same guy.I didnt mean as in a Gang bang...I thought it might of involved one girl sucking off quite a few guys and having them each spunk all over her.The other I thought it might be is very dark..perhaps bit to dark to write. You do know the person just not sure if it's the same person you are talking about :-)

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    1. Ummm again Exeter is a very big place, and Golden Delicious could've learnt that spanking technique anywhere it's the stand slap, rub it out, slap.
      Ummm what does this guy look like?

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    2. Your blogs are definatly the foundations for a amazing book. You are a amazing writer. The reason i love reading your blogs is because you have such knowledge forget 50 shades its all about KInky Cupcake. I would love you to teach me :-) He is tall with fair hair and green eyes....and tattoos. Im sure it was a coincidence and probably not the same guy, Exeter like you say is big. I just always wondered after reading your posts. Cant wait for your next post i hope it is soon :-)

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    3. Awww thanks! Really? Anything you want to know ask away eirher here or on fbook, i'm more than happy to teach in fact you've given me a great idea.
      Ummm nope that's not Golden Delicious. However i've a sneaky feeling I know who you are on about and yes he is hot! Nose piercing? Big chest piece with like a panther head and wings? He has appeared in my blog before but only as a friend we used to flirt a bit but thats it...too young for me.

      Ummm not sure when i'll be posting again...nothing is really going on that is blog worthy, G.D and I havn't sexted in ages and the only time i've heard from him was when I text him going shiiiit someone knows who you are. And that's it. So don't think i'll be posting again. X

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  3. the things I would do to you is beyond belief, you would make a fantastic suicide girl

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    1. You can't say things like that, and remain anonymous where is the fun in that;-) and thank you i'm very flattered *blows a kiss*

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  4. Another massive fan of your blog here, needed to comment on the 'suicide girl' comment, never heard that term before, whats it mean?

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    1. suicide girls are gorgeous alternative models, tattooed, pierced etc all different shapes sizes and etc...check them out:-)

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    2. P.s i'm glad you enjoy it :-)

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  5. Well you would make a fantastic suicide girl(as I said in my last message) i would love to see you in all your beautiful kinky glory I vote and pay to see that
    and thanks for the kiss

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    1. Awww thanks! I applied before, I passed the first round, did my photoshoot with a friend but he wouldn't sign the release from meh.
      You're welcome! :-)

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  6. Lol damn it, one day maybe we will get to see it. You are the most sexy like minded girl I have ever seen.so you go for it girl x

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    1. Awww thank you, that's lovely a lovely compliment.x

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    2. It is now go find some one to do you another set and get them up, i getting tingles thinking of it

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  7. I also think I know who Golden Delicious is. Exeter is a very small place. Is the Initial J? I always think that to when I have read about Golden Delicious in your blogs. Probably is'nt would be crazy if it was.

    And agreed another great post. Love your Blogs and you should become a Suicide Girl.

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    1. Nope his initial isn't J. But erm if he's fit and single hook me up lol jks.
      Awww thanks :-) i'm glad to hear it.

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    2. ok :-)

      Cant wait for your next post. Love your blog Kinky Cupcake.

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    3. Awwwe thanks:-) i've been sitting here wondering if I should turn this into a book or not hmmm thoughts?

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    4. well i think a may wank my self in to a coma if all this was in a book x do it x

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    5. Lol, I think i'd do it along the lines of "The not so secret diary of kinkster" or something way more imaginatively named. Xx

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  8. just name it after the blog, u should pose nude for the cover tho ;)

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  9. So when u getting naked on your blog for use loving fans

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    1. Is that a yes next blog then x :)

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    2. Lol no that's a no sorry. I'm not even sure there's going to be a next blog. Cheers for reading though:-)

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    3. there should definitely be a next blog! Look at all your fans, we love your blog now get writing!! x

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  10. Please tell me what your Kink is i'm desperate to know? xx

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